always will n always do
u told me to be happy
i'll be happy
as long as
you are
happy..
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Juz got back from zola with ryan n uncle simon... we drank 1.3 bottles of martell.. haha! i drank.. can say 1/3 of it n i was feeling alright.. juz tat my voice is gone.. zola is especially quiet today.. sorta good in a way cos we get to pick songs n not having to wait so long.. left ard 2.45 then got home pretty quick cos east coast to my place is like 5-10mins drive. but i'm kinda high now which is good cos i dun feel like vomitting but dun feel exactly sober.. haha!
SIGHZ! life juz sucks so bad lately... everyday juz work like zombie.. nothing to look forward to.. it really sucks cos it seems like i'm juz wondering ard aimlessly.. in hope that i'll meet my Mr Right somehow.. somewhere... i juz hate it the way it is now... i'm juz passing each day as it is... dare not imagine wats going to happen in future.. lin feels the same way too.. is this really the break that i've always been waiting for? or i should take? is this the time for me to sit back n think abt life.. abt wat i should do to my life? which direction should i head towards?
I have resigned to fate... its juz how my life should be... a sucky one! never seem to get anything right.. went thru so much in my past relationships tat its no worth looking for another.. cos its juz gonna be the same... SAME!! god y do u wanna let me suffer in that manner? do i really deserve it? :'(
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Friday, August 26, 2005
tomorrow's fri again..
SIGH...!! its friday tomorrow how come i'm not looking forward to it? guess there's nothing for me to look forward to atm? well its juz work.. home.. work.. home.. sleep.. i'm juz like another production dude in the line.. waiting for another balloon to explode with a loud BAM! everyone's like looking forward to going home to spend time with kids, husband or bf.. but i'm juz looking forward to go home n rot :S lin's not going to ard this weekend but lucky min is meeting me on sat for another shopping session... haha!!
Went to meet yanshi for dinner today.. which almost didn't happen cos her bf wanted to meet her last min.. then for some reason decided to meet me instead.. was suppose to juz go for a nice dinner but ended up spending most of the time in GG<5!! its having its end season sale n the stuff r going for 30-70%.. whhahaha!! both of us r GG<5 fans so......... *blehs* went to have sphegeddies (correct spelling??) after then got home ard 10.45pm... was chatting with aud abt an hr abt her job hunting n stuff.....
its late... i have to sleep.. got work tomorrow.. laterz!
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Sunday, August 21, 2005
wat r u looking at? i juz finish my shower n watching tv.. DO NOT DISTURB! *hmpfffff*
.at 1:54 PM
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1st time i did pedi with nail art.. cute?
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fireworks taken last sun.. supposedly french theme n its really nice! lasted 20mins!! :)
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part 1
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part 2
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Saturday, August 20, 2005
1 week's update?
Well actually.. there isn't much to update about.. the daily routine is basically wake up... go to work... come back from work... have dinner... dota, naruto or tv... sleep and the cycle happens again..
Nothing much at work juz tat one of my collegues from my dept left on fri... oh! n the supposedly secretary.. cocky as usual.. boss as me to give her stuff to do n she's either reluctant to learn or juz throwing her weight around unhappy tat i'm the one giving her work to do.. everyone in my dept thinks i'm the most poor thing one. haha! so suay man! have to sit next to such a bitch! (oh! n now i'll refer to 'de bitch' :P) yday she took 1/2 day leave.. she juz told me tat she was going on 1/2 day leave, no reason nothing.. didnt even say thank u tat i cover her duties for her n even took the leave form to me n said "sign!" -.-!
Went to zouk yday.. bro came along.. haha! the music was tempermental... sometimes nice sometime shit... weird!~ its by some belgium dj... n a 'hunting' fren came along with us... i cbf with her... all the while she was talking to the 2 other guys with us... she tried talking to my bro but he didnt give a shit either.. whahahahah~~ he said she looks creepy.. i was like ROFL!!
I juz got back from a company function at DXO.. so poor thing!! we went there late.. there wasnt anymore seats nor tables.. we had to hold our plates to eat the buffet... :S was kinda boring.. i left after 1.5 hrs.. was drizzling while walking back to ms carpark so had to run... :S now i'm back home waiting for my dear jiemin to confirm with me out dinner date.. haha!
Melissa out!
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Sunday, August 14, 2005
FUCK U JAN! I HATE U!!
I was so0o00o0o hopping mad yday when i found out that my best fren in melb got beaten up by her bf 2 days ago!! ARGH!! mad until tears flowed out of my eyes! so angry he actually did it to her n so helpless i'm not able to be there with her :'( to add on, my other good fren didnt stand up for her after finding out wat happened 1st hand!! OMFG!! i really wish i could fly over now n skin him alive now!!! i shall copy n paste wat happened from my best fren's blog... cos i wanna let everyone wat a bastard he is!!
Mad at him - left alone at home, duing ktv he lie to me he went toilet but he didn't. I hate people lie, still didn't show any temper at all while we were in ktv with his friends, just didn't talk much to him. Once again he drunk after ktv, has temper. We reach collins, he kept showing his temper, as we reach the lift step, bcos he said i was walking too fast, he pulled my hair and pushed me and i hit the wall. *still bearing* We reached home and entered into the room, kept mentioning i showed temper while in Ktv.. i sweared to god i didn't!! While i was facing the mirror n my back facing him, he threw his jean and hit my back *hurts, bcos he's drunk* I avoided talking to him, and tried to go for shower, he didn't allow and hell me from my back and pushed me down hard onto the bed - bang hit hard on my head *head hurts*. Now he went crazy.. He struggled me with his hands, later on he used pillow and tried to sufocate me * cant breath* I fought backand hit him with my hands as hard as possible *afraid*. The fights we on... i ran into the the toilet, tried to avoid him, he came in and slapped me few times with a $50 in his hands, shouting i always used his money *face hurts*. I can't bear it anymore!! i pushed him away cos he tried to struggle me again, i bited him back while he struggle. In return, he bited me too, on my arm *painful* it swell instantly. I fought back and slapped him few times, he bleed, and shouted calling his friends to come over to be his witness. Ended up, his friend at out place, and my housemate and her bf also woken up by our loud fights and arguments!!
Ok.. i shall cool down myself before i erupt with anger again..
Been at home the past 2 nites.. simon jio me go zola on fri cos it was ryan's bday but i didnt go cos i wasnt feeling too good... another fren jio me to momo on sat but i didnt go too.. feeling lazy. so have been at home the past 2 nites catching up with frens on msn, only played 1 round of dota n watching naruto...
gonna dota again.. laterz~
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Friday, August 12, 2005
ok.. this is the beau tat made my bro drool.. n after a few buckets of saliva.. he's still drooling.. lol! jackie chan's edition of evo9 with carbon kelvar kit.. hmm... i'm still more of an s15 person ;P
.at 11:04 PM
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nice? i think the gt wing looks horrible though.. but its a WIDE BODY S15.. not a vertex ridge kit though -.-
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HAHA!! this is a funny one.. there was so many fireworks at the same time.. it juz looked like a major explosion xD
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i took so many shots.. this is one of the best.. unfortunately its dark n i would say its pretty good, coming from my samsung d500
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ok this is a pretty badly taken photo but i juz ah gah aim!! cos both of us was standing on the railings of the bridge! :P
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me n lin at zouk.. the lightnings behind look kinda cool ya? its actually the long bar ;)
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Thursday, August 11, 2005
favouritism encourages low morale
Ok.. today was a bad bad bad extremely horrible day at work..
1) tis supposedly new gal came early in the morning but she was looking for my big big boss n not my boss -.- the first thing i noticed abt her was her rainbow eyeshadow... we were joking if ppl of the 'higher' ranking in our company has a requirement to put on colourful eyeshadows lol.. anyways, she was pretty cocky.. the most unfortunately thing was she's sitting next to me T__T for the whole day, nobody dare to come over to my place to talk to me.. sad.. the main reason was cos.. we checked her profile on the telephone directory.. turns out, she's the secretary of our section head from the main branch!! T____________T so wth is she doing here?? tat still remains a mystery atm...
ok let me discuss more abt her.. She opened the drawer at the desk she was sitting at shortly after she sat down.. only to find there was stuff in there cos my collegue (ys) used to sit there.. she looked at ys as though she expected her to take her stuff out immediately.. so ys did n left them at my desk. She started putting her stuff in n loading up some files onto the com... she cleared the stationaries too so as she was holding them.. i told her some of the stationaries might belong to ys.. she immediately opened her hand n dropped the stationaries on the desk.. then i took 1 pink pen n ask if was hers.. she juz looked at me n said no -.- For some reason, the air around the dept is juz different.. i was so sleepy after lunch cos i got no one to talk to n i cant even sms or call cos not sure if she's a 'spy' or not... anyways, she's juz different from the rest of us.. :S
Big big boss called for a meeting at 6pm.. i was suppose to go to the newly opened cali fitness at bugis but lucky i cancelled it cos i couldnt even make it. the meeting lasted an hr n was discussing how to improve efficiency within the dept.. it juz got more blood boiling towards the end of the meeting cos our boss finally showed her 'concern' for her fav pet in the dept. After the meeting, there was a discussion amongst the 4 of us from our team n man!!! boss could even mention now tat we got a new implemented centralised spreadsheet, she knows who's doing the work n who's not... OMG!!! look who's talking!?!??! she still had the cheek to tell her pet tat its ok.. she'll cover her ass for her... IN FRONT OF US!!! in the 1st place.. there's only 2 of us actually processing loans although here is 4 of us.. tats cos 1 is going to leave so the other is her pet!! ARGH!! *pulls hair!* my collegue A tried to say something but boss cut her off from saying... but at the end of it.. boss told her to speak wat she feels is the best was to maximise efficiency... duhz! -.-! she never got the chance to!!
this is so f***ing screwed up!! tomorrow's gonna be another debate... i juz pray n hope both of us dun exploded cos our blood was over boiling!!! :S
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Wednesday, August 10, 2005
hmm.. updates...
Went to drag race on sun but left 1/2 hr later cos the race got cancelled.. we didnt even go into the pit to see the cars... but we dumped a lift back to the country club in an evo 9 GT :P my bro's fren.. haha! Acc lin to roxy to do her nails n ended up doing a pedi again.. hehe! i was tempted to go for a body massage but tot i might as well do my nails.. me so hiao ;) gal wat.. wat u expect? :P
mon was a stupid day at work... boss having mood swings so we have to swing along with her :S once again.. heaps of cases so had to do ot on national day eve -.-! oh well.. i went home.. had dinner... n was all comfy in my home clothes n all.. at 10pm, still deciding which club to head to... so finally decided on zouk ONCE AGAIN... but when we got there.. some funny competition is still on so we had to wait... but damn! there were heaps of young ppl around.. most dun even look legal to smoke.. lol! well i guess its a sign we're all growing old.. each time i go to zouk, i never fail to feel old.. though i dun look too old myself :P
Didn't manage to get up until lin called me at 12.45pm on tues.. lol was suppose to go to ms to see drag race but i overslept... n so did my bro.. haha! i didnt put alarm cos i was thinking i surely get up at 10+ (which was my usual timing) with all the dilly dallying.. we only got to ms at 3+ n it was so darn hot!!! we ended up hiding inside ST's aircon tent... haha! hung out a bit.. did a bit of catching up with marianne n uncle leonard... then went to the roadshows... oh! i saw the supposedly r32 gtr tat needs a parachute to slow down lol.. the car died at the end of drag line so had to push/tow the car back to the pit -.-
Today was an alright day at work.. bz bz bz.. didnt exactly have time to stroll my way to the loo.
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Saturday, August 06, 2005
2nd time since i started work, i did OT on a fri.. lol.. the whole day was quiet until 4pm, there was a stack of cases for us to clear.. can't believe it man! we started rushing n end up had to do 1 hr OT to clear them up.. although we didnt clear all.. haha!
I went back to my hairdresser's to fix my hair.. the curls on the left side were higher than the right side so had to get them straightened out. Bro went along with me cos he wanted to cut his hair too.. I did treatment on my hair too n it cost $73 for it!!! -.- i know wat u guys r going to say.. gals! zhen ma fan rite? haha :P
Got home n had dinner ard 10pm then went down to Zola @ east coast ard 11pm. it was roy's bday.. uncle simon n the rest were scheming to get him drunk.. lol.. play bluff n i drank quite a bit so got a bit high.. haha! i had so much fun!! gwen brought her camera n we took so many pics.. refer to http://lurvegwen.multiply.com/photos/album/37 for crazy pics from our gang! we drank 3.5 bottles of martell n 0.5 bottle of chivas regal!! by the end of the nite, the bday boy roy (our main goal) was wasted n so was his wife pat.. LOL!! the rest of us were pretty high already.. lucky for me, uncle simon n ryan 'block' alot of drinks for me or else i'll probably be like one of them :P uncle simon forgot i pass him $20 n forgot tat he called me when he reached home -.-!!!
Was suppose to meet min today for dinner then kopi but ended up staying at home cos she was suppose to go to her poly fren's ktv gathering today.. we'll meet next sat for our private ktv training session..!! yippee!! *hops around* gonna watch naruto now... dota later in the night..
Laterz!
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ok.. there's my new hair do.. how's it? lol
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Thursday, August 04, 2005
Confucious say: BAD HAIR! u go to jail!!
Went to do my hair yday but it turned out totally not wat i expected!! heard heaps of comforting words from my collegues today.. though it looks alright but its juz not wat i expected.. was thinking if i should go back tomorrow to get it fixed :S actually it looks alright juz tat cos my hair is layered so the curls look very 'opened up' *sighz* wat should i do.. wat should i do?
not much cases today cos yday was coe bidding again.. i guess the load will come in only on mon cos everyon will go look at cars during weekends. heard the bidding for lil cars- 1.6l n below fell by $1k... cheap cheap.. dad say it was claimed to be the 14yr lowest -.-!
So..... wat am i to do this weekend?? hmm.... club n drink? chill n drink? play pool? watch race at marina south? zouk on mon? heard the dj pretty good.. damn! sg is too boring man!! y isnt there anything to do? or maybe i'll juz stay at home n watch the rest of naruto episode? install uncle simon's wow so he can't play? *evil grins* muahhahahha~~~
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Monday, August 01, 2005
screwed up day at work!! ARGH!!
We had a meeting early this morning cos most of us didn't do OT on fri n there was apparently quite a number of cases left pending.. my big boss came on at 7pm n told 2 of my remaining collegues to clear up the cases.. so tats wat the meeting is abt -.-! to do OT almost everyday!!
The influx of cases this morning was enormous! n my team which consist of 4 ppl, were struggling with the work. After like an hr or so, the 'tyhoon' (as we all call it) sort calmed down n my collegue A came to me saying, it feels like only both of us processing cases.. the other 2 seems to be chit chatting n doing some easy work. I didn't bother abt it.. continued doing my own stuff..
At abt 3 plus, boss came to me n told me to speed up in my processing. i told her i was helping to enter data into my system too tats y my processing is slow... then she said "juz speed up ur processing" BLOODY HELL!! my accounts mgr told me to finish up urgent cases for him n submit to him directly so my boss wouldn't get to see my work done. so wat am i suppose to do?!!? i can't possibly argue my stance so i juz told her i would speed up as much as i can. the more i think about it the more it begins to boil.. my collegue B (which is boss's fav) juz sit there, chit chat n act busy doesnt get told off but i did despite the whole day i've been sitting there working my ass off!! damn farking unfair can!?!??!!?!?!?!?!?!?! *typing hard on the keyboard*
Next incident was ard 6+ when i went to the internet computer to retrieve some telephone numbers from yellow pages. one of the temps was sitting there so i stood by the side.. she comes again n ask wat i was doing there for, i told her i needed numbers cos i cant find it in the (farking 2004 edition) phone book. she said "juz call the customer n ask la" Didn't i remember she told me that i muz alwaiz do a discreet check to confirm customer's employment if its a high margin loan?? SO WAT IS TIS NOW?!?! DUN HAVE TO CONFIRM???! I WAS JUZ DOING MY DUTIES N I GOT TOLD OFF FOR IT??!?!? @#$%#$%Y^)(*&^*&^% i left at 7.30 without informing her..
*trys to cool down*
ok.. we got a new guy today n he was sitting at yanshi's desk. after lunch he asked if i was eddy (my kor)'s fren n asked how did he knew?? *frowns* he said he saw me 2 xmas's back while we were clubbing at zouk n kor got super drunk. wat a small world huh? -.^
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hmm blurry pic.. but didnt retake cos this is the 4th pic they took but it failed to turn out nice.. haha! anyways, ryan & lin..
